life is tough.. shattered dreams..

Yet again a long inactive period. I guess its only you left who would know i made this post.

Today really made me very emo.. Losing the chance to be in the exco for astro is not only just a loss in the astro position. Its the shattering of dreams and basically making my future screwed.. Living life for so long, I've never really had a certain goal and aim. Recently after watching the Yale music video which i so fell in love in, I had firmly decided that I really wanted to go to an overseas university.

To go to an overseas uni, the first step would be to get a scholarship, and more or less an exco position is required for me to even have the chance to CONSIDER applying for one. Yet just about a week or two after I had made a goal, a dream, it got shattered in just 5 short minutes.

I don't know what to expect of life anymore. life.. my future seems gloom.. Life is really hard.. haiz..

Thoughts just come and go. Troubled..