Reflections and Happenings

Things in life has changed much or so it seems. Spending the past hour ++ reading blogs, something I haven't done for quite some time, made me think back on stuff.

Testimonial and Personal Statement was one of the more important happenings. We have to write the testimonial in a 3rd person perspective which was rather odd. I was really crapping about basically nothing.

Project. On the surface of the log book, it seems to be doing extremely well. The unapparent truth, there is still so much more that we're missing out on. People have their web reports done. Mine doesn't exist. People have theirs being regarded as the most promising project in the category. Mine is just another antibacterial project, though the only plus point its not on some already known stuff. I really hope to get into finals for Proj Day. I have never experienced that joy in the past 3 years. Always got kicked out in Semis, even worse preliminaries..

Results. I didn't do well for my geography exam, which means I must focus a lot on my IHC and China Studies. I appreciate Chinese as a language, but dread doing it. However, lately I have been better able to read Chinese, e.g. YZZK. Maths test was quite good, considering I felt I was anyhow doing since I prepared with a blur mind the day before. Obtained a mere A1, though I definitely could have done better. Physics was quite a stun, getting stunned at quite a few questions. Was able to do, though some misconception here and there. What's more, kinematics is my weakest physics topic.

Piano. I seriously wasted my parents' money. Primary School time was seriously screwed up piano-wise. I practically slacked all 6 years. Secondary School, I had gained a better interest in music, and also started picking up songs of a more modern nature, the likes of tong hua and qing tian. Other than Canon in D and the upcoming exam pieces, I can't play any other classical songs already. haiz. So much for classical piano course. Thinking back, I hadn't completed much in my primary school time. Secondary School is quite late to catch up. Everyone is already at grade 7, 8 or even going for diploma. Furthermore, my playing time is really short, like just 15 minutes a day, when i'm supposed to be committing an hour.. Piano Exam coming up in just 2 months. If I really want to do well, I'd better be practising frequently (longer periods) starting from now.

Schedule. First time I'm ending a day at 9, and reaching home at 10, on a regular basis. This occurs every Thursday for this term. There better not be the existence of a test on Friday, if not I am royally screwed. Plus the subjects on friday includes maths and biology, pretty heavy subjects i must say. This is my life on thurs: School ends at 2:40 (its the only day we have to stay back after school), YDSP World of Science series till 6:15, and finally piano till 9. There is time in between no doubt, but the schedule is extremely tight and I'm gonna be rushing from Week 4 onwards as YDSP would no longer be in school.

Procastination. My greatest horror and my most frequented activity at the same time. I got rid of it in term 2 (i think). After the holidays, the terror has came back to strike me again. And it has indeed made a mark. Last time, I started work at 9. Now, I'm starting near midnight. Totally terrible. I definitely need to exclude it from my life, secondary 4 is in its 2nd half already, time is of the essence.

Rest. I'm definitely not having enough rest. This is justified from the fact I feel sleepy during school times. Or is it that my sleep cycle has change. The past holidays has had its impact on me. I have started sleeping later, the likes of 3 a.m. or so. Definitely bad. What's worse I had to wake up at 8 then. I have to wake at about 6 now. Some people make it up sleeping in class, and these people are the geniuses. I am not. Staying awake in class, I myself can become lost, what's worse to say sleeping in class. And of course, watching people opening pokemon booster packs at an unearthly time like 2 a.m. and being wide awake is definitely not a good sign.

Change. I guess I've changed much since Secondary 1, though not all for the positive side. Some people has had positive change, becoming more vocal, more outspoken, more brave etc. I felt i have gone the bad way instead. One major factor I must say, is undeniably computer games, in particular maple story. Many find this lame and retarded, however its the catch of levelling which really made me amused enough to get addicted. It has made me met some friendly people. But the things it took away from me is countless. I remember i was quite quick witted as a primary school boy. Now, I'm getting slower in thinking, and have mind blocks at school. This might be due to lack of sleep, but then camping in front of the computer does have its adverse effects as well. I was not thinking. I was merely exercising not myself, but my fingers, which does not require that much exercise in itself. Maybe I shouldn't have followed the computer gaming trend, like how I was thinking in the first half of sec 1, that I would never ever dabble with these stuff.

Reflection is one thing. Doing is another. Having spent time voicing out my reflections, I shall attempt to change. That's all for now.